Costa Rica 2014

Costa Rica 2014

Hahahaha a whole month without one blog post. OOPS. Ok so i’ve been back from Costa Rica for about 2 weeks now; thats not too long ago really. I’m not that mad.

My trip to Costa Rica was full of a lot of firsts. My first time travelling out of North America by myself. My first time staying in a hostel. The first time I realized how horrible my (lack of) Spanish skills are. After a nightmare of flights into Costa Rica, I had to take a 5 hour bus ride from San Jose to Tamarindo. I arrived at my hostel around 10pm and immediately went to bed. Exhausted from over 24 hours of travelling.

The next few days there were good vibes all around. Beaching, building sand castles, meeting new people, surfing every day, dancing, sharing stories, watching the sunset and eating. I started to feel a bit restless after a couple days though; always feeling the need to move, to see more, to do more.

Tamarindo Sunset

I decided it’d be a good idea to rent a car and drive up to Monteverde one morning to check out the cloud rainforest nature reserve. After getting behind the wheel of my little all-wheel drive whip and plugging in my own music, I instantly felt more fulfilled and happy.


Most of the roads in Costa Rica are decent, but the higher you go into the Monteverde mountains the more rocky and bumpy they get. Driving through the modest towns perched on the side of the mountains was so cool to see. The locals who live in Monteverde usually ride dirt bikes because of the bad roads and the surprisingly high gas prices. This trip really solidified for me how much I just love driving. You get to see so much more when you drive and it felt like more of a adventure too.

Road to Monteverde

Hiking up to the top of the Monteverde cloud rainforest reserve was pretty dope too. The rainforest I went to was located right on the continental divide of Costa Rica. One side of the country has the Caribbean Sea on it’s coast and the other side has the Pacific Ocean. So when the warm and cool air mix at the continental divide, you get all this mist and cloud that reminds me of the last scene from Crouching Tiger Hidden Dragon.

Costa Rica. One day i’ll be back, and I promise you I’ll be driving.


Human Connectivity on the Internet

Human Connectivity

What did you used to do in 2010? Personally, I was in school, I was 23 and I was (and still am) addicted to the Internet. So in addition to spending borderline unhealthy amounts of time on social media sites like Facebook, Twitter, Tumblr and Youtube, I sometimes played Chatroulette.

At the peak of it’s popularity, there was an average of 50,000 people world wide using Chatroulette at any given time. It wasn’t all just dicks either, it was possible to find normal people on the site. You just had to shuffle though 8 or 9 sessions of penises before you could actually find a fully clothed person. I remember once, late at night, I stumbled across someone wearing a bright American Apparel hoodie and a pair of colourful thick-rimmed glasses. His hood was over his head with the strings pulled tight so you could only see his glasses and a tuff of dark, curly hair sticking out. He was sitting at a desk and I was sitting on my bed, against a wall, under a window. I waved at him, ready to end our session if he decided to flash me his dink. He waved back. Finally, a normal person.

We started chatting about the usual stuff like, where are you from? Brazil. What time is it there? Late. What are you doing? Nothing. Then I asked him, “What do you do?” He sat there for moment, as if contemplating whether he wanted to tell me or not. “I’m a graphic designer,” he finally replied. “Show me,” I said.

He sent me a link to his portfolio. I clicked it. As I hovered over the navigation bar of his page the background strobed with flashes of bright colours, lighting up my face and the wall behind me.

“This is so weird,” he said to me.
“Why is that?” I asked.
“Because, i’m here in Brazil at 4 o’clock in the morning and you’re there in Canada looking at my website that I designed. I can see the colours flashing across your face from the other side of the world; That’s really cool,” he said.

Yeah, that is pretty cool.


Lovers Roundup 2014

Lovers Roundup 2014

I’m not a huge fan of Valentines Day, whether I’m in a relationship or not. What I do love about contrived holidays like this though, are all the great mixes and tracks that usually get released on the day. So fuck the flowers, fuck the chocolates, fuck all those disgustingly happy couples out there (IMSOBITTERLOL).

Here’s a selection of some of my favourite releases from the weekend, let’s call it the Lovers Roundup 2014.


Ongoing Care for Childhood Cancer Survivors

Cool Guy Pose

So in case you didn’t already know, i’m a childhood cancer survivor (let’s go with CCS for short). I haven’t done a full post about it, but I probably will soon. Then again, i’ve been saying that for over a year now so we’ll see.

I’m a part of this group called The Childhood Cancer Survivors of BC (CCSBC) who champion for the general health, well being and ongoing care for, you guessed it, CCSs. I’m gonna be honest here and say that I don’t really participate in this group as much as I probably should. I have a bunch of excuses that aren’t that good but, let’s address my shitty participation grades another time.

I’m really lucky when it comes to my after effects of being a CCS. I have all my limbs intact and they all work well considering, my bones are healthy and strong considering, my organs are all working well considering and i’m in a mentally good place pretty much all the time. I only have to take a few medications, have a ankle brace and have alopecia side effects but that’s not so bad.

So with all that good stuff going for me, my ongoing care regiment is pretty mellow. I’ve been in remission for about 22 years now and have been really healthy during that time. The only thing I feel i’m missing, is having more CCS friends.

Don’t get me wrong, i’ve reached out to other CCS groups to try and make new friends and really connect with the people there. I just can’t seem to find anyone who’s really on the same page as me in a “life” sense. Have you ever heard the saying,

“Surround yourself with like minded and positive people because negative people will bring you down and blah blah blah.”

I do my best to live by that idea and am pretty bummed to say that, quite a few of the CCSs that i’ve tried to connect with kinda bring me down in a negative way. It sucks though, because I know that most of the time it’s not the CCS’s fault that he or she is like that. When a parent’s child is sick, it’s only natural for them to want to protect and do anything to make their child’s life better. This “babying” sometimes continues for too long though, even as the child transitions into adulthood. Me, being so independent, cannot relate to these kids at all. In fact, it’s frustrating to be in the same room as them.

I think a big part of the ongoing care for CCS kids needs to include counselling or something like that. So many CCSs feel limited in what they can achieve when they really aren’t. Most of the time, the only thing holding them back is themselves.

(Click HERE for the article that pretty much inspired my semi-rant here)




More feels from one #sadgirl to another. xoxo