More feels from one #sadgirl to another. xoxo
Ugh I hate this time of the year. It get’s all cold and miserable outside and I get another year older. I’m entering my late-twenties now. Fuuuuuck.
I just re-read what I wrote after my last birthday and looking back, I think i’ve done a pretty good job progressing from last year. This isn’t the time to pat myself on the back though, there’s still a lot more I want to achieve before i’m truly satisfied. Although, I do finally have a career driven job that I truly love and look forward to on the daily. I also have lots of great supportive friends and family around me; i’m pretty stoked on that.
What I think I really want to work on next year (besides getting a boyfriend, paying off student debt, and getting a apartment) is my attitude. I’m aware that I can be a really mean and hateful person sometimes… even though I don’t mean it most of the time. I’m going to do my best to be a more outwardly positive person, try to accept the things I can’t change, and celebrate the things I can.
I hope I can re-read this post around the same time next year and say that i’ve definitely grown. That’s all I can really hope to do each year, grow as a person and move closer towards my long-term goals in life. Right?
It’s all about the feels right? #sadgirls for lyfe. I’m posting a bunch of sad girl tracks that i’m feeling right now. Listen or don’t, I don’t care.
I love New York. The last time I was there was so long ago. My main goal this time around was to catch up with my friends and family, explore somewhere new and see some amazing shows. It was so good to catch up with my east coast fam, E, D, R, B, D and H. I was lucky enough to get to see some old friends and make some new ones too. J, M, M, H, J, M and E, thank you for everything!
One of the highlights from my trip for sure was seeing Haerts belt out my favourite song – Wings – at Terminal 5 on Thursday night with J. Her voice was so beautiful I wanted to cry. See you again soon NY <3
“The fault, dear Brutus, is not in our stars / But in ourselves.”
So recently i’ve been trying to get into reading fiction again. Something relaxing and non-business related that I can treat my brain to a few times a week. Besides, reading more should improve my writing and that’s something I really want to work on anyways.
I came across this book because I watch a lot of Youtube shows and the author, John Green, vlogs with his brother as the Vlog Brothers. I’ve also heard really great things about this book through the blog-o-sphere and knew I wanted to read it even though I didn’t really know much about it to begin with.
The general plot of The Fault in Our Stars features a young girl who survived teenaged cancer and her experience with friendships, love, loss and just life in general living as a survivor. I know this is kind of obvious but, experiencing life as a survivor is really different from living as a healthy person, but it’s really similar to other people living as survivors. So even though i’m a childhood cancer survivor, which is an exponentially different experience from being a teenage cancer survivor, I still really connect with all the characters in this book and what they go through.
One of the reasons why this book is so special is the way the author captures the nuances of being a survivor. I understand all the inside (and sometimes fucked up) jokes sick kids make because lets face it, we’re all living on borrowed time. In any other situation we’d all be dead. It’s a really dark thing to think about but when you’re living in a hospital for months at a time, you get kind of desensitized to everything. And if you don’t have a sense of humour about it, how do you expect to live through something like that?
“Qualities of a Good Nurse: Go.” I said. “1. Doesn’t pun on your disability.” Issac said. “2. Get’s blood on the first try,” I said.
Get’s blood on the first try, that one hits home for me! Imagine the smallest, skinniest Asian 3 year old you’ve ever seen mean mugging her IV nurse asking, “So… how many times have you done this huh?” That was me, haha. Every survivor should read this book, heck everyone should just read it. It’s that good.
“What a slut time is. She screws everybody.”
John Green, your book is perfect. I felt ever range of emotion while reading this book and could barely tear myself away from it during the 3 days I spent devouring it. Thank you for writing it.